Oh Suzanne

Suzanne takes me down to the beach at the sunrise

And she holds my hands and pulls me to the sea

That sparkles in her green eyes

And we laugh as we touch

With long looks down her lines

And she pulls me close and whispers

And we splash and play and whimper

And float like driftwood

To be delivered on the shore

In great waves I hear God roar

And we tumble across the pebbles

And lay towels out to snore

And Suzanne you climb onto my back

With thighs, I won't ignore

And you rub my sore shoulders

While I gently restore

And when I wake with sea breeze

This is love in my core

Oh Suzanne

Hold me gentle

Give me comfort

And Serenity

Be my mother and my baby

And down I explore

As I grip my hand so tight

Across your skin so white

The juicy lip you bite

We make our reality

And follow it all night

Oh Suzanne

I ache for your being

How I miss the smile greeting

And the way you crack your bones

After a long rest in our old home

I can’t drive past no more

This pain won’t stop seething

As I pray for your forgiveness

And atone the beast I’m being

I’ve sat many days in silence

Crossed-legged & counting

To build a discipline

That will make me worth having

Oh Suzanne

How I look for you

In each new face I’m seeing

How I'm tempted to knock at your parent’s place

How 50 first loves and counting

Inching away from my disgrace

But oh I can’t stop longing

The world spins better with your embrace

How I wished it would be easy

And you would blow to the wind

But I’m haunted every day

By a goddess who won’t have me

And I yearn for the days

Of beaches, massages, and martinis

Oh Suzanne

Last night

How I held you

Close like I used to

Body pressed

Comforted in your caress

You squish into me

the familiar perfume fills me

All was restored

My love enured

But I know

Inside my stomach this was

a mistake for us two

I’ll disappoint you sue

I’ll be the best I can be

But the devil will tempt me

As you dropped your chin on my shoulder

And I awoke with sad horror